a wise man once said, "you can have anything in life if you can sacrifice everything else for it." what he meant is, nothing comes without a price. so before you go into battle you better decide how much you are willing to lose.
too often, going after what feels good, means letting go of what you know is right. and lettting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building.
of cos, the toughest sacrifices are the ones you don't see coming.
when we dont have time to come up with a strategy, to pick a side or measure the potential loss... when that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around...thats when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.
-meredith grey

today is a fulfilling day.
gym. latino jam. rehearsals...
evening with guang and shaun at ben and jerrys.
totally by chance
and definitely the highlight of the day.
been deprived of my love for much too long.(:
tummy's feeling awful though.
i suspect its too much chilli at dinner time.

and the void between us just grows.
with everything that we do not say..
filling up with the immense silence.
i search my brain but it draws a blank
and i cant help but wonder
when did we begin to turn our backs away.